Day 26: Detox Dreams & Morning Temptation Battles

And if I am successful I know that I defeated the only real enemy I have: myself.

So it’s taken until the night of Day 26 for me to have a drug-related dream.

These types of dreams usually start to kick in once physical withdrawal is over (within the first week for most things except alcohol and cigarettes, which are weeks and months respectively… the 2 legal ones… hmmmm…). Continue reading “Day 26: Detox Dreams & Morning Temptation Battles”


The Unique & Terrifying Journey Through & Beyond Hope

Trying to emulate someone else’s battle against and past Hope (or whatever they happen to call it) is a surefire way of fucking up your own battle strategy and copping a serious beating.

The Hope Detox

Everybody’s Hope is uniquely their own. That’s why the cunt is so good at fucking with you; cause it’s you, one step ahead of the exhausted, bewildered, scared you that is knocking on Hope’s door on a Tuesday night at 3am.

Continue reading “The Unique & Terrifying Journey Through & Beyond Hope”

Fuck Hope

“Humph. Hope, it is the quintessential human delusion, simultaneously the source of your greatest strength, and your greatest weakness.”

The Architect, The Matrix: Reloaded

Hope gets us through impossible times, when the challenge is or appears to be completely impossible to overcome. That’s why it’s so big in fairy tales, hero journeys and romance novels.

The reality is that Hope is a crutch. Continue reading “Fuck Hope”